frustration with no name...

My heart is thundering, storming, brewing something I cannot name.

Too many people, chances, lifetimes I passed and graciously gave the finger for reasons I cannot name.

Good friends, best friends, long nights with great conversations, kisses in public, kisses in private, travel, career carrots dangling in my face lost and all due to a piece of me that hinders my life; this something I cannot name.

I can't stop my leg from shaking, my stupid leg rattling under me and for what? I speak of my pride, what I feel is right, my feeling of being hurt and excluded, me me me, blah blah blah...what are these good for now? What have they propelled me to today?